About (Autopsy Report)

__In_order_to_have_had_any_shot_at_getting_our_prospect_“On_Board”,as_we’ve_succeeded_half_a_dozen_times_or_more_before_with_others_(which_get_used_to_make_the_new_guy_seem_beyond_priceless_to_make_certain_he’s_super_pursued)_we_would_have,_in_the_beginning,_had_to_have_done_our_homework_on_his_past_and_found_out_that_his_stubborn,_strong_willed_nature_has_caused_himself_far_more_heartache,_anguish_and_humiliation_than_anything_we_could_have_possibly_conjured_up. The_first_time_someone_was_brought_on_board_was_through_tricking_a_four_year_old_Isralien princess_into_removing_and_handing_over_the_very_essence_of_her_freewill_&_prospects,_to_be_treacherously_altered_and_maneuvered_for_their_own_purposes,_betraying_her_ordained_destiny._Her_name_was_Lisa. During_the_first_half_of_his_life_he_could_never_just_take_anybody’s_word_for_anything (no_matter_who_they_were). He would typically always have to find things out the hardest most painful way. He grew up innocent enough though out in Boring Oregon out in the country as kind of a misfit. Being a little too trusting and eager to please, he often lacked confidence with the ladies and didn’t even have his first real kiss until he was 19 years old and his high school years were over.

__If (,instead of merrymaking,)_our goal was to get him_“On Board” (in_accordance_with_Martha’s_dowry_requirement_for_Tom)_we_would_have_had_to_have_capitalized_on_his_inexperience_with_the_ladies_&_eagerness_to_love_without_any_regard_for_his_own_safety._Other_than_if_we_had_allowed_him_to_see_and_have_to_watch_the_more_helpless_suffer,_finding_a_way_to_get_him_to_sacrifice_himself_for_someone_else_he_believed_he_loved_was_our_only_hope._For,_havin_“fallin_in“_with_a_dangerous_crowd_just_after_he_first_moved_to_Portland_at_age_15,_he_had_already_seen_too_much_painful_scary_stuff_ long_before_us_to_be_any_kind_of_scared_for_himself_(IN_FACT:_Previously, throughout his adult life after leaving the town of Boring, he pretty much managed to stay fairly well consistently surrounded by wayward, deviant-type influences all throughout all his adult life up until he was removed from the Brooklyn apartment by us.)

__Making sure he lost his apartment right off the bat immediately and ended all such possibilities with him. If he would have been allowed to keep his place and/or get his true inheritance he would have stayed a meth head and stayed exposed to and influenced by countless wayward women as well. There would have been many such opportunities. This should have been obvious seeing how nervous he was around a Call Girl.

__He used to be so terrified of his own anger that on average he’d only allow himself to get really pissed about 2 hours a year. He would always tell himself “I can take it. Others can’t. That’s why I choose to stand up for them.”  Though all of this, having so often been made to believe that mankind’s end was near, his dark side was brought out and intensely provoked so many times that he came to terms with it. He now has evidence that he can control it even under duress and is finally at peace with it because he’s found a valuable use or two for it with us. (Plus he has gotten better and better at turning it on and off like a light switch.) Having been able to keep it only directed at real threats to people, he now sees that part of him as useful to protect others, to make him a little more assertive at times, and to make his points.

__He had, a long time ago, considered himself too tough to worry about, and then we showed him what a fantastic fighter he was, causing him to discover his new favorite high: feeling like a hero. It might not be as intense as some but it lasts every waking moment of the day.

__He had such difficulty in the beginning, not knowing how to not share. Walter was kind enough to show him a trick to atleast have some privacy while using the bathroom.  He was so self-conscious believing that he had caring eligible human women “in his head” 24/7 that he cleaned up his thoughts, became more honest and even stopped second guessing himself. This wound up forcing him to become a truly self-actualized person. He has been tested  to such a point that he might not ever have to doubt himself again for the rest of time. He became “that person no one ever bothers to become”. In order to keep from losing his mind from hearing his thoughts constantly repeated back to him and commented on, day after day non-stop repeatedly, many messy thought processes have now become eliminated. His mind is exceptionally quiet today and if unprovoked can actually choose to not have a single thought in his head for up to two solid days.  (**To_truly_have_any_kind_of_“meditative”_state_of_mind_to_this_degree_on_any_regular_kind_of_basis_requires_one_to_have_completely_overcome_all_attachments_to_any_carnal_desires_what_so_ever._You_cannot_be_‘distracted’_by_anything_(You have to learn to feel content no matter what is happening;  and this takes an intense amount of self-examination & “inner work” which seldom happens except under certain extreme circumstances.**)

__His 11th Commandment (for himself) used to be “Thou Shalt Not Knark.” For that’s interfering with karma & involving himself in other people’s business. He also believed quite often that “there was no wrong or right. It’s just you and the one’s you love against the rest of the world.” (We could have used this way of thinking against him.) But this all changed when he believed that the fate of mankind was at stake and that certain folks with the ability to “make or break” everything were not in control of themselves enough to be trusted. This caused him to decide that no one’s privacy was more important than everyone’s safety. Plus it occurred to him that if he had to choose between the one’s he loved and everyone else, that in his heart, he’d wanna choose them, but that in the long run he could not live with having to constantly imagine all the folks and families who just didn’t get to make it because of his selfishness. Today, he has a sense of “Civic_Responsibility”. He now knows that the “needs of the many” must always outweigh the needs of the few…

__At_one_point,_when_he_was_made_to_think_that_there_were_no_“demons”or“angels“_and_that_we_were_all_just_very_gifted_humans,he decided right then and there, because he thought he might need us in order to know how to do what he really wanted with his abilities, that he would not waste time_he did not have on revenge, going up against such a seemingly vast endless network without a safety net or an afterlife, that ultimately, helping others would bring him far more satisfaction in the long run…

__He was so desperate to help us become aware and understand how dangerous and crazy some of our bad habits had become, that all of his mottos, his sayings, he’s acquired over the years wound up becoming quite fine-tuned and customized for us, to the point that they aren’t just for him any more. Anyone can understand them now. He has grown spectacularly as a speaker and can even see himself doing something like that as part of a career in the future.

__Having the widst of his sanity tested so often, he has become almost twice as funny as he was before our intervention in his life. He appreciates others more and values controlling_just_himself above anything else.

__On_a_hill_with_a_“PERFECT_view“_off_Powell,_his_apartment,_with_an_electrictyless_room_above_him,_caused_him_to_wind_up_hospitalized. They 1st tried to get him to sleep with an under-age female or two & when that didn’t work, something left in a nicer pair of slippers left behind by his old roommate managed to give his foot 3 kinds of staff infection in less than 6 hours. After losing everything, and being incapacitated for 3+ months (between hospital time & the recooperative care fascility), the apartment wound up turned over to more preferred meth-heads who knew how to use the apartment properly. Robert & Dave who’s less than legal carnal appetites at all hours concerned the neighbors enough that the wary landlord decided she could not have the confused little neighbor kids hearing some of noises coming out of the windows just feet from their backyard. So she ended up moving them into #7 upstairs and across the hall to solve the problem. 

__This added to his humility and being a little too inconvenient to do at the rescue mission, he was forced to quit chewing tobacco (because it requires a spittoon, water & toothpaste for him), a 25 year habit. Having nothing left to lose makes you able to be a lot more fearless and effective through all of this if he had had a thing to lose. He is now more “angel-like” because of us than he could have ever become without us on his own.

·•∞He used to by and large keep to himself & stay satisfied purely through fantasy & an excessive amount of self-manipulation & very seldom ever anything more (; content to live outside “the family-dynamic”). Today he chooses to live in The Real World or not at all. He now only gets aroused in imagining the distant faint hope of a family of his own someday. He hasn’t enjoyed or needed porn, for example, for the better part of a decade, gave up self-manipulation completely well over a year & a month ago and currently, as long as there is any undeserved unrest in one’s spiritual life he sees sex as something “worth doing” only in the interest of pro-creation and/or Real Love, and really not to be squandered elsewhere∞•·

⇒Currently, he has renewed his christian upbringing, been clean over 7 years, drinks about twice a year & is finally square with Uncle Sam. ( He originally owed ±20 grand. In FACT, before losing the apartment he doubts he would have been “Ready To Meet His Maker” within his lifetime. TODAY: He can honestly say he was ready more than a couple years ago.)⇒

__Before we came into his life his big dream was owning a speaker building company. Today, he has an adult dream: helping others achieve long term happiness through learning to control themselves by understanding the human ego and the inner workings of the mind and heart … .. .  (He has been called to be an Addictions Councelor.)